Low Adaptability

I'm still missing my previous lifestyle tons. Perhaps I should attribute it to the fact that I have too much free time on hands, that I cant help but keep thinking about the goodness of life back then.

There were days when the alarm clock rang and I wished the moment I opened my eyes to see myself in our WH aptment; I wished the last 3 weeks were all a dream; I wished I do not have to succumb to the ovenous weather...

There were nights when I was browsing through the pictures we took in STL, and my heart pounded with heavy beats. I wished so much that I could be transported back to the hay days, to either shop the days away or spend leisure noons with TWC...

I am very certain that I've never seen such a horrendous crowd at every nook and cranny in our tiny island before. A few attempts on the train ride during weekday mid noons proved to be annoying. Not only there were not a single seat in sight despite the fact that I board at YCK stn ard 2-3pm, I see shoving and pushing at almost every stations. Driving out during the same time of the day is more agonizing. It took me 30mins to travel fm CTE AMK ave 5 to the PIE exit. I wonder why are there so many people on the move during mid noon.

It has become inevitable to make comparisons of even the tiniest aspect of life back in STL and here.

I am still hoping that one day, I do get shaken up from this dream. One day...

Goodbye

I know, there should be a proper closure to our lives in STL, to my blog. I've been so lazy to update anything, really. It could also be perhaps that I just didn't want an end to my blog. Yet, I want it to end "gracefully".

Have been back for a week. It still seems so surreal. Especially when I'm in the train, or whenever I'm squeezing my way through the throngs of crowd. These are the moments when my life come to a standstill and my mind goes back to STL. I'm trying to get used to the public transport once more, to the heat & crowd nevertheless. "Joo Koon"? I was a little lost on my 1st train ride. The crowd was something I need to really get accustomed to in no time; suddenly I felt like my own personal space has shrink considerably and everyone is standing so near me! I was indeed very conscious of the hands nearby; blame it on the media reports of the happenings during NY. Heat is another problem, not surprisingly. Couldn't live without the fan/ aircon. Meals in the KPT is still very unbearable, and I have been saying no to hot soup and porridge to my mum at home.

During the times when we walk through the aisles in NTUC,I couldn't help but keeping missing the leisure times I enjoyed shopping in Dierbergs. Come to think of it, the only time I truly enjoyed grocery shopping was when we were in STL. Wide aisles, quiet mart, slow life, best combi isn't it?

Despite the "tough" times here, I am still trying my best to integrate back into the society. Left with no other options, this is sadly the only way out...


*P.S. I haven't decide to go back to my old blog, to set up a new one, or to stop blogging indefinitely. We'll see how my life goes.